as of dec.18 2005 this site will be shut down because im trying to keep myself out of trouble and trying to start a new life and try and turn things around for the people that will miss im sry that im leaveing xanga i still have my yahoo and im sry this is so short notice im just sick of my life and tired of fucking everyone elses life up if u know me off of myspace im also planning on shut that down also by the 1st of the year so i can keep my self out of truoble please leave comments if u want so i will check up every few day and then shut it down on that day

ok so whats up everyone like life is totaly a whatever thing right now for u who know what happen its between us and no one else i thought that i would be scared of something but im not im really deep down ready when it is if i have to go soon then i will but as i sat and looked and head my life of what i have flashed before my eyes i tried to be there for u guys kate and and katie and tino but i wasnt there enough i felt my on life leave me i was hit with shock but woundered why i didnt go i was ready as i looked ahead stareing as if i was walking to it my life has flashed before me but i will never be the same to look somethin right in the eyes and not be scared to walk to it amazes me im ready to just to be ready to walk away to say than im willing to i had everyone on my mind each and every person i have ever came in contact with i had them on my mind and saw them flash before my eyes im scared to admit that im ready and i feel that if things would of went that way i may have been able to meet the one that left me behind

ok so whats up everyone ok so i got suspended for bullshit some kid starts saying he T.I. and shit im like dude ur white T.I. is black so ur done so hes like im goin to kick ur ass and all this shit so i called him pussy for not hitting me and shit so hes like im eating thats why im not hitting and rick stands up and was like yeah eatting a dick so dude runs his mouth to rick and almost gets his ass kick and keeps runnin his mouth so he gos inside and gets like 8 of his little fresman friends and get in our face andsaying there going to kick the four of our asses and shit and saying that were just a bounch of little kids following a bucnh of sissy ass clowns and so me and rick stand up and were like dont diss our fucking family and he calls rick out and gets in his face so rick shoves him back out of his face and so the dude walks away saying hes goin to kick our asses and calling us bitches and i was like ur to much of a bitch to hit me or rick so who is he calling a bitch than he turned and gave me and rick the finger so i went after him threw the school and so my friends went after me and held me back and so the the head guy took us three in and was like u and rick come back so we went back there and we told him what happend than he took the other dude back there and then took me back with the one dude than sent me out then took rick in and then took me back and the kid told him that i did everything and shit and rick told him the same stoy i told the guy and he took the one kids word over mine and ricks and started yelling and bitching at me saying it was all my fault and so i was like look if ur goin to suspend go ahead so i get back to my class and he was like get off of me things and ur out of here for 2days and so rick and the other dude walked away wtih nothin at all so everyone is after the dude that gotme and rick into trouble and than there goin ot beat the hell out of him for fucking with us

and my parents have given me permisson to kick his ass as long as its off school grounds